Angel : Angel sleeps, curled as always, close to Nathanael. Again, she dreams of Christmas, of arranging presents beneath the glorious tree, her slim body wrapped in a soft, silky nightgown of nearly translucent white silk, her hair spilling down around her, falling freely to her knees.

Tansy: And let the ritual prepardness come into effect. Eli wasn't home. He had gone to do something, who knows what but arriving home from the halloween party she, dropped everything off where needed, slipped into something a bit more comfortable, and went up to the work out room. These stairs were going to kill her. ((2 rolls, 1 Quint and one WP on last roll)) She starts by dancing and murmering in romani the words she wish to help her get to Angel, preaying that the other was asleep.

Tansy: d10: Dex+Preformance: 9,2,2,4,9,2,1,6,

Tansy: d10: Arete: 6,4,

Tansy: d10: Arete: 5,4,

Tansy: She feels her mind connect, stronger maybe this time? She slowely moves to curl up and lay down as she enters Angel's dream.

Angel : As she works beneath the tree, she hums softly, fingers brushing over this tag and that. Nathanael. Tansy. Thomas. Tetra. Piles of shimmering, glittering packages, each one wrapped with love.

Tansy: She looks down to herself, to see what she in this dream is wearing, standing as she is suddenly in the dream. When she looks up she watches Angel for a minute or two.

Angel : Smiling, she settles back on her heels and then stands, adjusting a string of lights with careful fingers.

Tansy: So she is pregnant, dressed in a comfortable midcalf length nightgown. "It looks good." she says.

Angel : She jumps, slightly, hearing Tansy's voice and turns, smiling. "Hey, baby," she murmurs, looking caught between running to the other and simply staying where she is.

Tansy: "Hey sweetie." she moves further into the room, looking around as she does so. "How have you been?"

Angel : "I'm good." A pause as she licks her lips and then she's darting toward's Tansy, slowing as she nears so that she can touch the other's face, craddling it gently. "I miss you..."

Tansy: A soft smile. "I miss you as well. I am sorry I haven;t come any sooner." she closes her eyes and shakes her head. "It has been extreamly difficult."

Tansy: She kisses Angel back, and then pulls back with a shake of her head. "No he hasn't, but, if he isn;t at work, or out with other people, then he is hounding me, trying to keep an eye on me."

Angel : "But when isn't he out? When isn't he acting like a little whore," she asks, frowning, crouching to kiss Tansy's belly softly, arms sliding around the other woman's hips, beneath that heavy swell.

Tansy: She sighs and pet's Angels hair. "It seems that he is around a lot of the time sweetie. He is sometimes home all day, sometimes he is home from dinner time till the next morning. It just all depends."

Angel : "I wish you could come here and live with us. We would take care of you," she murmurs.

Tansy: "Let's sit down." she says trying to move with Angel over to the couch. Once they are both sitting down, and comfortable. "I can't....I do not want any harm to come to the babies, and I know if I do not 'behave' that he can do horrible things to me." Her eyes look out into the distance. "And I will not let that happen."

Angel : She frowns and draws Tansy back against her, resting the woman between her legs, hands sliding under her arms to curve over her belly, craddling her. "Then Thomas confirmed what Nathanael told you," she asks.

Tansy: "Yes." she says, eyes normally full of emotion are just not. "All of it, everything."

Angel : "I'm sorry, baby," she murmurs, kissing Tansy's throat softly. "Why has he been staying so close to home though? Is he suddenly afraid that someone will come and sweep you out from under him?"

Tansy: "I am too important to him. He made me promiss that night, after we got home, that i would never be with any other demon. He doesn't trust my judgement."

Angel : "Not even Thomas," she asks, frowning, arms tightening. "Tansy its not your judgement he doesn't trust...Its his hold on you."

Angel: ((*Staple*))

Tansy: "No not even Thomas, and right now Thomas want's to get far away from Eli as possible. Distance himself." she lays her arms on Angels. "I do not know."

Angel: She sighs softly. "Tell him about Nathanael..Tell him about me. Distract him

Tansy: "No." she says it and she sounds like there is no swaying her from what she has her mind made up to do. "I have a few options, none of the but one permanent. you will need to remember to warn Nate, they either should be close by now, or will have found you soon. I do not believe, that Eli has faithin my abilities, so i doubt that he will ask me to try anything."

Angel: She nods slowly. "I'll tell him. He'll be ready for them," she says softly, confidently. "But why not distract Eli? Turn his attention from you to me. Those babies and you are far more important."

Tansy: "Because you are as innocent as these babies are, sweetie." she swallows. "And I will not have anyone going through any pain for the likes of Eli's will."

Angel: "Not for Eli. For you," she says softly. "I love you."

Tansy: "I know sweetie, but I wouldn't want you to get hurt." She rubs Angels arm. "And I mnade a promiss not to reveal any names, And if it is one thing I am going to keep is my promisses."

Angel: She sighs softly. "I don't want this dream to end. I don't want to wake up."

Tansy: She closes her eyes tightly, a tear rolls down her cheek. "I know, sometimes we have to wake up from dreams tho." she opens her eyes.

Angel: "Tansy..." She blinks and lifts a hand to wipe away the tear, licking it from her finger. "Don't cry. This isn't forever. We'll see each other again...We will."

Tansy: A smile. "I know we will. I feel, or felt as if I had woken froma dream when i was told all of the things, and found them to be true. "She looks to Angel. "It hurts to wake from a dream to face reality, but you grow wiser by doing so."

Angel: She touches Tansy's cheek softly, cupping it as she gazes into the other woman's eyes. "I wish I could make it not hurt...I wish I could just make Eli realize what he's done...Wake up."

Tansy: "At first it did....." she says to Angel. "It doesn't now."

Angel: "You're angry," she says. "Right now you kind of hate him probably...Like I hated Mike."

Tansy: She shakes her head. "No....I do not feel anything towards him." she answers honestly. "He....is nothing to me."

Angel: "I'm sorry," she murmurs, pressing her face into Tansy's neck.

Tansy: "Don't be." she pet's Angels hair. "I believe it is for the best, I can function, I am not a numb automaton like what happened to me earlier....I dunno how to explain it."

Angel: "You know its the right thing. Kind of how I know I need to be with Nathanael right now."

Tansy: She nods her head with a soft smile. "Yes, I know I will have time later, but my life and others depends upon my actions."

Angel: "He really does love me you know," she says softly, voice almost awed. "He cares for you too. He's worried."

Tansy: She nods her head. "Many people seem to be worried about me."

Angel: "Because many people love you, Tansy."

Tansy: Love got her into this mess in the first place, what really is love. "They care about me sweetie, yes I understand this."

Angel: "There's all sorts of love. THere's passionate love like I have with Nathanael...There's the kind of love that's a deep, bottomless well...That's what I have for you. There's the jealous kind that Eli has...So many kinds of love, Tansy and all of them are right and real."

Tansy: "Sweetie, I do not believe that what Eli feels is love, but an undying need to enslave people."

Angel: "Eli's pride is...He loves in his own way Tansy but its not healthy...It is though, all he knows I think."

Tansy: "He talks circles around people, his versions of the truth. I will not let, what happened to us happen to anymore people, it needs to end."

Angel: She frowns. "Tansy?"

Tansy: She looks to Angel. "What?"

Tansy: "I do not know, but I cannot and will not let him enslave others, and take my children away from me." she says, no they are no longer her and Eli's children. They are her's "I will not allow him to continue to hurt people."

Angel: "Tansy if you...If you hurt him it will destroy something inside you."

Tansy: "What choice do you or I have? He will never break the pacts that we are under. He will not stop with just us. For all I know, he might even make pacts with my children, to keep them in line." She shakes her head. "If another were to kill him.....that would release us. Or if I go to a very old and holy ground, but I cannot live on holy ground my whole live and the life of my children. It is not possible. We are out of options, I am out of options."

Angel: She shivers softly. "Nathanael!"

Tansy: She frowns. "What?" she rubs Angels arm trying to comfort and to sooth.

Nathanael -> Angel: His voice echoes in her head. "My love...are you all right? What is wrong?"

Angel: She tightens her arms around Tansy and closes her eyes.

Angel -> Nathanael: "I'm dreaming, with Tansy. I'm afraid that she's going to hurt Eli...Maybe worse. She can't, it will destroy her, love."

Nathanael -> Angel: ((She has to actually speak aloud for the words to reach him. *S*))

Angel: "I'm dreaming, with Tansy. I'm afraid that she's going to hurt Eli...Maybe worse. She can't, it will destroy her, love." ((Bah!*LOL*))

Tansy: She blinks several times slightly confused by why she would feel so upset about this. She runs a hand over Angels hair soothingly.

Tansy: She rolls her eyes.

Angel: Her arms tighten around Tansy. "I won't let you do it, Tansy. I'm sorry..."

Nathanael -> Angel: "I see." A sigh. "Angel, my love...I cannot say that I blame Tansy. But you are correct, it would do irrepreable harm to her. Perhaps, if another were able to do it, her involvement would be much lessened, and she would be able to make it through intact..."

Tansy: "If he can hear, and you need to listen. We do not have many choices. You still love him even after all that he has done to you. Tried to make you his salve. Do you not remember anytime that you talked to him that you didn;t feel like you had hurt his feelings by wanting something? That his way was better, although you disagreed?"

Angel: "Its not that I don't want him punished Tansy...I just don't want you to do it." She sighs. "Nahtanael...can you?"

Tansy: She lifts Angels chin up with a finger. "Do you wish Nate to be tracked down and killed by the other, or anyone else for that matter? There is no other way."

Nathanael -> Angel: "I can...attempt it. I am no combatant...and I do not know his fighting skills. But if I can get in close, perhaps be trusted by him, it is a possibility."

Angel: "If Eli figures out what you're doing Tansy he'll hurt us both without thinking...I'm not really asking Nathanael to kill him...but to help me find the one to do it."

Angel: She rolls her eyes at something. "Love, no. I don't want YOU to attack him. I will not risk losing you."

Tansy: She smiles. "He has no idea that I have been visiting you.....he has no clue what all of my study time has been. He will not know." she says it is like a promiss.

Nathanael -> Angel: "I can try to find someone. Do you think..." He sounds contemplative. Like he's considering an option.

Angel: "Besides, Nathanael, Eli is a wuss." She sighs and turns Tansy's head to kiss her slowly and deeply.

Tansy: She returns the kiss to Angel, a bit supprised by Angel kissing her out of the blue, she slowely pulls back. "He is a wuss, with people he tend to rely on very heavily, who will come to his aid, and who will revenge his death."

Angel: She blinks at Tansy and blushes. "I've wanted to do that for months," she admits, sighing. "Do I think what, Nathanael?"

Nathanael -> Angel: He chuckles a little. "Point made. Do you think that Thomas could be convinced to do so? If given the proper...motivation? Or perhaps Victor...he's threatened enough times..."

Nathanael: ((Wow, it's like the Spice Channel's goin' on inside Nathanael's head! Lucky guy! *Snerk*))

Tansy: She smiles softly to Angel, remining quite for Nate's answer to her.

Angel: "I may be able to convince Thomas to help us," she says softly. "He's withdrawn from the situation...but he loves Ouestu...I think though that his honor is greater then his love."

Tansy: She shakes her head as Angel speaks Tom's name. "I already tried.....He will not help anymore than he already has, for either of us."

Nathanael -> Angel: "I..." He sighs. "Angel, I have an idea. It will require us to be apart for a short amount of time, but it will be very short, and will allow us to be together...and Tansy to be with us too...when it is all done."

Angel: She blinks slowly, something very like fear sliding into her eyes. "A-apart?"

Tansy: She frowns and rubs Angels back, not knowing what is going on.

Nathanael -> Angel: "We will still be able to see each other, my love. Just not as we are now. If you cannot bear it--and honestly, I do not know if I could--then we can seek another way. But I cannot ask Tetra, it would be traced to me. Thomas, or another within Eli's circle, it would be harder to trace back."

Angel: "He has an idea," she says softly. "It means not being with him for a while..."

Angel: She inhales shakily. "I will do anything I have to to have you and Tansy in my life without being afraid that Ouestu will snap..."

Tansy: She frowns. "Then he will be leaving you unprotected.....and we cannot have that."

Angel: "I won't be unprotected. He wouldn't leave me vulnerable."

Tansy: "Not entirely no." She continues to rub Angel's back. "But not all protection's are visable ones"

Nathanael -> Angel: "All right. What I propose, is that if they are looking for you--and frankly, they have not done a good job of finding, but still--that we use this situation, as a way to earn their trust. If I were to 'return' you to Eli, then I would have a place of trust within their circle. And then, I can find someone to turn against him."

Angel: She blinks rapidly at that. "He wants to give me back to Eli...To earn their trust..."

Nathanael -> Angel: "And of course, I would not leave you unprotected. And this is not..." He pauses. "This is difficult for me to even suggest, my love. You have no idea. But I..." He pauses once more, a quake coming to his voice. "I also worry about his becoming desperate and attempting to ravage you in order to prevent your use against him. It is something that has been worrying me for some time now...something I do not, obviously, wish to occur."

Tansy: "No." she is epathetic and it somes out maybe a bit more harshly than she had wished it to have.

Angel: She smiles softly at something Nathanael says. "I love you...I can do this.."

Tansy: "Are neither of you listening to me?" she frowns. "He mind will be weak to whatever means he will empoy to twist her to his will. She will not have any protection in going back and if you do this then tonight will be the night."

Angel: "No, Tansy. We have to do this," she says gently. "He can hurt me whether I'm there or not, Nahtanael is afraid that he may be becoming desperate enough to do it just to keep me from whomever I am with."

Tansy: "Fine." she says standing up."I will go through with this tonight. That way you will not have to worry about anything. I am not powerful enough to protect her mind from his wills......I can protect myself, and then he will know from what he get's from you Angel what I truly feel and my life and my children's will truly be in danger and I will not let that happen."

Angel: She frowns softly at Tansy, not quite understanding the bit about getting anything from her mind. "Tansy..."

Nathanael -> Angel: "Tell her that I will be with you...that I can find a way to protect your mind from him."

Angel: "Nahtanael says that he'll be with me...That he can protect my mind from Eli's."

Tansy: She crosses her arms. "Not without him feeling it, that is why i cannot protect your mind. Because he will feel it."

Angel: "I believe in Nathanael, Tansy. I KNOW that he can and will protect me."

Tansy: "I am glad that you believe he can do this Angel, I d not. I know that everytime I make sure I shield my mind, Eli feels it, every time he walks in a room, comes near the house, he knows. As they can feel what each other does."

Angel: She sighs softly. "Nathanael..I don't know what to do."

Nathanael -> Angel: His sigh matches hers. "I...if I were to try to use my Lores to protect your mind, he may sense it. It is true. However, sometimes the most powerful defenses come from places that people do not expect. The mundane. The situation. Does Tansy trust you? And does she trust me?"

Tansy: "Also if you come back he will make you promiss not to sleep with any demons other than himself."

Angel: "Tansy, do you trust me," she asks softly. "Do you trust that I KNOW Nathanael...that he loves me too much to risk me? Do you trust him to do whatever it takes to save us both?"

Angel: "And if I come back I will not sleep with anyone until I'm safe in Nathanael's arms again."

Tansy: "This action will be like throwing a lamb into the lion's den."

Angel: "I'm not as weak as you think I am Tansy."

Nathanael -> Angel: "Lambs can be quite powerful, dear Beauty. And I think that this particular lamb is armed with something quite powerful. Knowledge, and conviction. And the ability to do what is necessary to ensure her own and her loved one's safety."

Angel: She smiles softly. "I can do this."

Tansy: "And I have learned tho Nate that my Trust has been misplaced too many times. There is little leeway if you go back, you remember what all of that felt like the way he made you feel, the way he could twist his words to make you feel like trash. And you believe that Eli will not know something was up?"

Angel: "Eli will, more then likely, think that I was brutalized and hurt...Eli will believe what he wants to believe...That I love him but am afraid."

Tansy: "Do what you will.....I cannot make your memories of your dreams vanish, I cannot protect your mind from being warped by Eli. And I have a feeling, that he will indeed, do us more harm than good."

Angel: "Nathanael will not let him harm us any more."

Tansy: "I trust in my abilities to see that done more than his."

Nathanael -> Angel: "I will be listening, always. Should you eve approach danger, I will put a stop to the threat. Once and for all. but that should be a backup plan. You can deceive him, Angel, for all of our good. Tell him what he desires to hear. There is risk in this, yes...but in anything that has great reward, there is risk. And yes, Tansy would rather risk herself then you; she loves you. Just as you would rather risk yourself then her. This is accomplishable."

Angel: "And I trust in both of you to do the _Right_ thing, Tansy."

Angel: "Nathanael would not risk me unnecessarily. And I know that you're trying to stop me from doing this because you love me...And I love you both more then anything in this world but I will do this."

Tansy: She shakes her head. "I shouldn't have come. This does put you in undue risk, why do you think he hasn;t hurt you before now, you are not as important to him. I doubt unless you came back and were the same person, that he would hurt you. We are making too many risks."

Angel: Tansy's words hurt and she blinks, drawing away.

Nathanael -> Angel: "Love..." His voice is warm, calm. "Tell her it can all be done in a way that ensures that an explanation for all of this. And you know, of course, that no matter how Elijah may or may not feel, there is nothing on this world or another more important to me then you."

Tansy: "You have to know that Angel, deep down. Yes people are looking for you, but so far, he hasn;t done any work himself, for all I know he has been out getting more Thralls."

Angel: She inhales slowly and repeats almost verbatim what Nathanael tells her. "It can all be done in a way that ensures an explanation for all of this. And no matter how Elijah may or may not feel, there is NOTHING more important to Nahtanael then me." And she belives that last bit utterly and totaly.

Nathanael -> Angel: There is no verbal response immediately, just a sense of pride and devotion.

Tansy: "Then you seem to have everything planned out. Do not worry about me, I will fair well." She tries to look into Angel's eyes. "I was the one that had enough strength and determination to look for you to find you, to reach out to you because I love you."

Angel: "And I love you too much to let you do something that's going to hurt yourself in the longrun Tansy." She sighs. "I don't htink of these baby's as yours and Eli's...I've always kind of thought of them as ours. Yours and mine and his...Like I was their other mom...I would not put you at risk for anything in the world. I'd rather kill Eli myself then let him hurt you."

Tansy: "As once Eli, or Ouetu said to me....Elijah Phillips is a man who is dead.....so I carry a dead man's children. They belong to me, and the family that good and true of heart."

Nathanael -> Angel: "That's..." He sounds sick at hearing the concept of a dead man's children. "This man will be dead. Soon."

Angel: She steps into Tansy and hugs her tightly, awkwardly for the other woman's belly. "Then let me help you. Trust me to be strong enough to do what I have to do. I have you and I have Nathanael and I love you both so much...Eli can't touch this kind of love."

Angel: She sighs softly. "Nathanael...If we had children it would be the same," she says saddly.

Nathanael -> Angel: "I would never refer to our children as a dead man's children, Angel. That's revolting, and shows his true character."

Angel: She smiles. "I know you wouldn't Nathanael, that's one of the reasons I love you."

Tansy: She cups Angels face in her's. "I trust you to stay safe, so that I do not have another worry on top of all of the others that I have. I know you are safe here. I do not know how safe you will be back there."

Angel: "I cannot sit here praying that you're okay, Tansy...I can't."

Angel: ((That is far less then my original post which the site swallowed.*SIGH*))

Tansy: "I will be okay, no matter what happens I will be okay. There is too many people depending on me."

Angel: She blinks and tears roll slowly down her cheeks, her hands rising to hold Tansy's to her. "I can't force you to do anything..."

Tansy: She hugs Angel. "And in no way are you forcing me to do anything that I hadn;t decided to do, or some to the conclusion on my own."

Angel: ((AAAAAND...I need to go. So!)) "I love you," she whispers, kissing Tansy again softly as something draws her from sleep.

Nathanael -> Angel: He's quiet, still in her mind...letting them talk. Just a presence there for Angel, for support.

Tansy: ((*Hugs take care have fun!)) Kissing Angel back she feels herself moves to wake up from her curls up sleep. She looks around at the darkness and shakes her head.